"Bleeds and Sweats and Pees LSD"
What do you do when a child who bleeds and sweats and pees LSD suddenly goes missing? We conducted a massive search. As massive as we could manage. Almost every "mentally elevated" CIA department was involved. We didn't trust anybody else. We never trusted anybody else. Shit, we didn't even trust ourselves, considering that it was one of our own who had taken the child.
We searched for about two months, but never really turned up any leads. Since every other "returned" child had died within a few days of being freed from their amniotic sac, we scaled the search down pretty quickly. It's one thing to search for somebody like Bin Laden , when everybody knows you're looking for him. It's another thing to search for somebody you had just worked quite hard to erase from official existence so you would be free to perform tests on her. We felt that the search itself was more of a security risk than the missing child, since she was almost certainly dead.
There was also a feeling that maybe it was for the best. Maybe she would survive. Maybe she would have a happy life. Maybe it was best not to know her fate.
But then, about 7 years later, we learned what happened.
If you'll allow me to wax philosophical for a moment, I'd like to quote a poem by Aeschylus that I've actually never read: "Even in our sleep, pain which cannot forget falls drop by drop upon the heart, until, in our own despair, against our will, comes wisdom through the awful grace of God." While I'm no literary scholar, I believe this means, "Learning can hurt sometimes."
So she had survived. Her genes came up in our program to collect a global genetic snapshot (a total boondoggle , btw). So where was she? In some Russian laboratory? Living out in the jungle, being worshipped as a god by some doomsday cult like Johnny Htoo ? Floating through space in a bubble to Jupiter and beyond?
Estonia. She was found in Estonia in a Swedish speaking village on the island of Hiiumaa. She was living a normal life. Apparently the issue with the bio-LSD had resolved itself after detachment from the placenta, otherwise, anybody who got a kiss from her would have found themselves going on a very strange journey. She was about 13 years old at this point and had survived travel far longer than any other child. This meant she was an asset we absolutely had to obtain. She contained the secret to survivable travel, something that had eluded us for years.
It would have been convenient if she was living a life of abuse and drudgery in some orphanage somewhere. We could have simply considered her a victim of fortune. But she was actually living in a quaint little village on the edge of a beautiful forest with an old couple who had been given some phony story by our former agent. It was a nice life. Quiet. Maybe a little boring. But a nice one.
We took her in the middle of the night back to our facility in Colorado.
In the end, she wasn't a victim of fortune.
She was a victim of us.
Fairy Queen - Tami Stronarch
Lyrics:
If I could be a Fairy Queen
And I would hold a Magic Key
To Reveal the Hidden Secrets of the Mind
Then I could See the Darkest Blue
The Mystery that's Part of You
And I'd Weave a Spell to take away your Sorrow
Fairy Queen
Fairy Queen
Changing Teardrops to a Smile
Holding Daydreams for a While
Fairy Queen
Fairy Queen
She's your Shelter in the Night
The Guardian Angel by your Side
Fairy Queen
If I could be a Fairy Queen
I'd find the Long Forgotten Dream
That is Deep inside the Memory of a Child
If I could Hear what Words don't Tell
From
Way down in the Wishing Well
Then Reality would turn into Illusion
Fairy Queen
Fairy Queen
Changing Teardrops to a Smile
Holding Daydreams for a While
Fairy Queen
Fairy Queen
She's your Shelter in the Night
The Guardian Angel by your Side
Fairy Queen
If I could be a Fairy Queen
I'd take a Walk Behind the Scene
Where the Puppet Acting Plays that Never Ends
I'd pull their Strings to set them Free
They'd Play their parts most Perfectly
And my Magic Harp would make them Live Forever
Fairy Queen
Fairy Queen
Changing Teardrops to a Smile
Holding Daydreams for a While
Fairy Queen
Fairy Queen
She's your Shelter in the Night
The Guardian Angel by your Side
Fairy Queen